自卑感。。。

最近我可以说得上是处于超级自卑的状态中...
why???bcuz my friends always say English in front of me...
n i'm jealous bout that...
cuz i dont knw and i misunderstanding what are they saying about...T.T
n i was like 被排挤在外。。。
so SAD!!!
when can i speak english seems them???
impossible right???!!!
but i'll try it at all...
freakingjealous---XiA0 m000